"Our lives are a collection of STORIES, truths about who we are, what we believe, what we come from, how we struggle and how we are strong. When we can let go of what people think, and OWN our story, we gain access to our worthiness-the feeling that we are ENOUGH just as we are, and that we are worthy of LOVE and BELONGING." - Brene Brown
I was trying to take pictures of them, Daddy and Asher, walking through the snow. But the screen was getting all caught up in the focus and I just didn't know how to make it stop doing that.
I ended up liking the photos anyway.
This made me think of that Brene Brown quote up there and the way that things may not look the way other people like to see them, but if they're yours or they're you, they are good and enough, just as they are.
I can't get the italics to shut off or stop in this post. I click on that i up at the top and the words just stay italicized. So maybe it doesn't look quite right, but it will be what it will be and that's okay.
I am like that too, that's the point I'm making. I am sometimes out of focus and sometimes that's led me into life things that took my breath away with their bad. And sometimes I just can't get myself to change and maybe I should just know that I'm okay, just like I am and be more gentle and patient with myself. If I believe in unconditional love and grace the way that I say I do...I see that most of the time I'm only battling what I think people think, not something that's actually wrong with me. When I feel like a screw-up and then I get sad and then I get lazy, I'm seeing through a screen that's too close to my face, you know? Judging myself out of insecurity or a fear of not being good enough.
It's good to sit up and pay attention and realize that. And then stop it. Just stop it.
There's not always something wrong with me, something glaringly awful to fix. Maybe I'm just me, living my story, and maybe the changes will come in their own time and even if they don't, I'm good.
I was just thinking about that...so I thought I'd tell you.