Wednesday~September 30, 2009
I'm having a crisis of blog.
A crisis of B-L-O-G is what I'm having.
I started out skipping along with a tra-la-la in this whole blogging thing and then people started calling me a writer and I was all really? It's a nice thing to be called, but I'm still not sure I have my mind wrapped around what it means for me.
I guess I just can't figure out how to do this anymore, or how I want to do it. (Blog, that is.) Which is why I nearly up and closed this baby down the other day. (I know, GASP! How would life go on?) (Please note my sarcasm as you read that last sentence.)
I absolutely loved Maggie's post Evolution of a Blogger. It said all that I could say here. You should read it, it's just plain excellent.
To be completely cheesy, I want to do this whole blogging thing really well. When I've written posts (there are just a few) that I'm actually proud of, they've been inspired by a creative part of me that I didn't even know was there before I started blogging. Now I feel pressure to keep that up. No one but me is putting that pressure on me, but I also don't know if the just write for yourself thing can actually be a reality. Because any blogger with a growing readership knows it's most likely impossible. If you are never thinking of your readers, you're super human. And anyway, to think of the readers is not always about an insecurity or fear of some kind, it's simply a recognition and respect for the people who are spending their time with your words.
I don't care if it's silly, I do want to give people what they came for, and I want it to be from my heart. I want that even though I know this is "just a blog," and it isn't really taken very seriously outside of the blogging subculture anyway.
Am I really a writer? I still don't know. I'm a blogger, and I love that. I just don't know what to do with it.
So there you have it. (I say that as if any of the above makes any sense at all.)
A crisis of blog.
On Friday I will have the honor of guest posting at Moms Without Blogs, one of my favorite places. The unsuspecting readers of that blog will hear more about this crisis I'm having. Because there are a few other things I'm sorting through, like how I feel about the whole commercial side of blogging and also how I feel about all the obligations of social media.
I'll link to it on Friday so you can check it out if you want, but please, don't have any expectations. (I know, I'm hilarious.) (sarcasm again, you're welcome.)