6/28/10

miles and miles and miles and miles and miles

On day one, you taught me that having a c-section didn't make me a failure
because I had you.



On day 2 I studied all your sleeping faces, all day long
and I loved even the frumpy grumpy ones
and you still make them
and somehow, I love them even more



In your first months
you showed me what peace looks like
and how it would feel when you're sick
always like I'm sick, but worse




You've always shown me
joy
pure joy
in the smallest things



In your first few years, I learned that so much of what I know and believe is because of you.
You are five years of love and light, struggle and growth and absolutely nothing I would trade.
Because of you I know what an old soul in a small body can bring to this life, and I know that I will always always love and accept you...no.matter.what. And I know that I say be careful too often, but please know I really truly want you to live out loud. Please live out loud.


You shaved your head with Daddy's electric razor.
And just for documentation purposes, let's not forget that
you stuck a nut (of the nuts and bolts variety) up your nose
and $450 later, a specialist got it out.

Strangely, these antics simply made me love you more.


One of my favorite memories, running in the sun-rain with you.

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Miles, you are my birthday boy and one of the great loves of my life. No mother can ever prepare for the way she will love her children. Every mother knows the wonder of it all, the unfolding of a human life in her care, the enormous learning curve and fear and happiness.

You are the perfect boy for me. I think that's how God does it, no matter how our children come to us, He gives us soul mates, and then we get a taste of Heaven.


Happy 5th Birthday, my Milesy. I love you.

Mommy-
What can you always ALWAYS know for sure?
Miles-
I belong!

Mommy-
What do you think will happen in your fifth year?
Miles -
I'll play baseball and I'll walk the dog. And I'll ride a two-wheeler and try not to fall down so I'll need to take balance. And um, let's see here...what should I do? Okay, I will play being a Daddy with Asher.

Good plan.


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MollyinMinn said...

Happy birthday sweet Miles (Mom and Dad, too). May this next year bring you many more running in the rain-sun kind of moments.

Nicki said...

Happy Birthday, Miles! Happy Birth Day to Mom and Dad!

Kelly Langner Sauer said...

awh... you made me cry! happy birthday, Miles - and happy birthday, Mama. you were born when he was...

Justine said...

Oh how beautiful! "You are the perfect boy for me. I think that's how God does it, no matter how our children come to us, He gives us soul mates, and then we get a taste of Heaven." - this made me weep. And I'm in my office! :)

Happy Birthday Miles. You are both so luck to have each other...

Hyacynth said...

Happy becoming a mom day to you, Heather. And happy birthday to your little {but bigger} sweetness. Miles is adorable, and I loved his birthday answer.
I think our first borns have such a special place in our hearts because they have taught us oh-so-much. Enjoy the day together.

Kim said...

Happy Birthday sweet boy. I hope this 5th year is AWESOME to you, just as it should be!

Wendi@Every Day Miracles said...

Oh 5 is SO much fun!! So grown up with just glimpses of little. I am enamored by 5. My Jay turned 5 in Feb - and he is such a mixture of little boy looking for answers and maturity.

sara said...

Happy Birthday to your boy!!!

and what a great post...you wrote exactly what is in my heart for my boys!!

Annette Lyon said...

Oh, this makes me grin and ache all at once--my babies are gone, but you've got one adorable, precious little guy there, ready to take on the world!

Jen said...

What a beautiful birthday post.

Five is tough but its great and for some reason, I believe it is the last year where they can be little. Hayden is going to be 6 soon and its like he is entering a new stage in life. He is no longer that preschooler, he will soon be my adolescent.

I am having a very hard time with six.

Holly said...

Sweet Post!! Happy birthday to your sweet boy!! (((HUGS)))

mandiegirl said...

Beautiful! Happy birthday Miles!

5thsister said...

You are such a beautiful and eloquent writer. What a touching, loving tribute to your birthday boy!

Tooje said...

Have a wonderful birthday, Mr. Miles! And Mom, you do the same. And I love how you said that...he's the perfect boy for you....we are given our soul mates. I feel that way, EXACTLY, but never really understood it until I read it here.

My boys are perfect for me, and I think Evie is too. I can't wait to pick them up from daycare now and kiss them. Thanks. :)

Manic Mother said...

Beautiful pictures, I love the first one especially. Happy Bday little man! Little boys are the cats pajamas (don't ask me what that means, I picked it up in the South).

♥Georgie♥ said...

This was just BEAUTIFUL Heather! Happy Birthday to sweet Miles...

alita said...

Happy 5th Magical year to your Miles!

Beautifully written :) My oldest will be 5 next month. The years truly do(fill in the blank) by so fast!

ps. loved the shaved head shot. TOO CUTE!!!

Casey Freeland said...

Do not make me cry at work. Damn I'm such a sissy.

Kristen @ Motherese said...

Happy birthday, Miles! What a lucky boy and what a lucky mama!

(Big fat sloppy tears over here. You get me every time, lady.)

Angie said...

Oh, friend. Happy birthday to your Miles Man... and heres to many more days of peacefulness, sun-rain joys, and heart-enlarging antics.

Becky said...

TEARS!!! Loved this.

Happy birthday Miles and happy birth DAY to Mama.

Allison @ Alli 'n Son said...

"He gives us soul mates, and then we get a taste of Heaven." I just love this.

Happy birthday Miles!

Aging Mommy said...

Happy birthday to your son - enjoy celebrating this very special day. I am glad you have found your soul mate in your precious little boy, that line you wrote I just love.

Kimberly said...

Gorgeous, heart tickling tribute. Happy birthday Miles!

Roban said...

Our children enjoy their birthdays, but we truly celebrate their 'birth' days.

I love that line... "I think that's how God does it, no matter how our children come to us, He gives us soul mates, and then we get a taste of Heaven."

What a sweet tribute!

Jen said...

Happy Birthday Miles!

What a beautiful post about your soul mate.

And try a sponge up the nose! You have to wait for them to smell before you figure they are in there.

misssrobin said...

Such a beautiful love letter to your sweet baby.

Until I had chidren I don't think I really "got" God. I think I have a little better understanding now.

Corinne said...

What a cutie pie! Happy 5th birthday to Miles :)

becca said...

How unbelievably, so totally wonderfully sweet and beautiful this is. Happy Birthday to you and your big (little) boy. xo

Roxane B. Salonen said...

I have a 5-year-old too. They are the best, I have to agree. Each child is a precious soul that didn't exist before we took part in their creation. It is an amazing thing, every new life that breathes that did not breathe before. You have really spoken of the wonder of life here and I'm smiling along with everyone else. :)

darcie said...

Happy Birthday to your Sweet Sweet Boy. Amazing how much different life becomes when we stop and see it through the eyes of our children-
xoox

Robin said...

What a special day. I love how your birthday post celebrates what has been, what is, and what will be -- altogether in one little boy!

ZDub said...

"No matter how our children come to us, He gives us soul mates, and then we get a taste of Heaven."

That makes me happy to my very core.

Happy day to your dear sweet boy.

P.S. Sun-rain is the best.

Elaine A. said...

Such a sweet boy. I hope he the most of wonderful of birthdays.

I can tell from your words that the two of you have a VERY special relationship. There's just something about Mothers and sons...

峻龍 said...

河水永遠是相同的,可是每一剎那又都是新的。......................................................................

Christine said...

I'm late, but happy wonderful birthday to such a sweet boy. And Happy Birthaversary to you.

You are so right, God knows just what he's doing. I'm so pleased I've had the good fortune to understand this.

Lee Vandeman said...

Oh I'm so bummed I'm late to this birthday party but this mama of summer babies is letting a tear fall over here over this post of love for your first born baby boy. I love love love the picture of you two running in the sun rain and it makes me want to run in sun rain too with all the people I love....

Happy Birthday to that sweet-faced gift from God...hope you guys had an amazing day.

xo
Lee

Sue Campbell said...

Happy Belated Birthday, Miles!

deb said...

Happy Happy Belated Birthday Day!

I read this and then needed a moment. Which turned into a day or something :)

this just oozes good love .

and who knew?

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