I looked around and knew there was too much mess and dirty for a clear head, so I cleaned for a while and then I played Super Mario Bros and then cleaned some more.
My head is clear now. And so is the counter top and even the under of the couch.
My friend came over and we sat on the patio and talked about things that matter and when I look at her I see this beautiful person that reflects me and I feel better about who I am. We are both so broken and so fixed.
I made her late for dinner because of stories.
Then I got in the car and drove to the grocery store. The sun is out and it's not too hot and it's so good. I wandered into the movie section and to the 'must-see' wall. I browsed with no hurry and no chase and no scolding. I picked two movies just for me. Then I picked up lettuce and cashews and cranberries and when the nice young girl at the check-out asked how my day was going I asked her how hers was.
I got home and opened more windows because of the cooling air and I made my salad and my Maggie Drink. Cranberry juice, club soda, lime. On the rocks. I take my rocks crushed and then I chomp them.
Last year, when my boys took this same trip, I went to a matinee and then I drank. And then I drank some more and I don't remember much. I drank more and earlier, since there was no one around. And as much as I thought about that and part of me wished I could do it again, this day was much better than those days.
I will watch movies tonight and I will sleep in tomorrow, but not because I have a whoops I've over-done it again headache, but just because I love my pillow and the quiet. After that I'll wake up and sit on the patio with the crossword and coffee and the dog and I'll be able to think clearly.
And then I will write, for most of the day, with several breaks for Super Mario and key lime pie and to miss my boys like I do today.
So tell me. If given a few days off, a few days alone, what would you do with your free time?